Friday, June 25, 2010

Birthday and wishes

Today's My Birthday... the big 25! For the first time I feel it. I'm tired and my back hurts from sleeping in a weird position with a baby next to me for the better part of the night. I swear 12:30 hits and that boy is not staying in his bed come hell or high water.... I'm usually so tired I give in and go get in the guest bed with him. It just works people... don't judge ;)

I'm having a great day so far... Davis slept in til 7:15 for me this morning, I get to go to lunch with my grandmother and I get to go to masa tonight! Three things that make me very happy. Oh and I get to go do pedicures with my best friend of all time tomorrow, I'm so happy I get to go do this... we need some "us" time together :) She has a 4 year old and I have Davis so when we have the kids our little gossip talks don't really work. Its always oh crap hold on or spelling out words instead of saying them. ha ha we sure have come a long way from our diaper days together :) Wouldn't trade her for the world, You know who you love love you!

I also have been thinking a lot lately about working versus being home with Davis. My heart aches to be at home with him...I feel as though I'm missing so much. I'm OK with the situation right now because hes with my mom, Come August he will be in a wonderful in home day care with a lady I have known for the better part of my life but it still is going to hurt dropping him off. With my mom he gets undivided attention and I think that's why I'm so OK with leaving him. When he goes to day care he wont be the only child and while I know this is going to be good for him(he's slightly spoiled) it still bothers me. I feel like I'm going to miss a lot of first... and well damn it its not fair. Just something I'm going to have to get over. I think that's why I have fought so hard to continue nursing.... its a closeness I have with him that no one else does. Anyways... just some random thoughts. and to all of you stay at home mommies, just know that this working mama is insanely jealous

Heres a pic of my little sweet thing!

1 comment:

  1. Stopping by from Kelly's. Just wanted tell you I totally know how you feel with being a working mom! My little guy is almost 8 months old and it is so hard! But we gotta do what we gotta do I guess! You guy is so sweet and I am glad he seems to be doing better!